oh sweet imaginary world! I'm stucked again. One day I'll never turn back and you'll all call me insane. how the hell I was doing before!
But I'm terribly enjoying it, more than that I love it!
the only reason that I don't end my life right now is the fear of loosing my own world as well as the reality.
In this moment I feel this thin line deep inside me, and it all gets blur that makes me sick. I don't exactly feel which one is real.
Maybe already gone insane. but you made me like this. you; the society, the family, the friends all of you!!
everyone demands something, no one asks what's the real intentions of mine.

Some of us forced to be with people they hate, some of us hates their job, career path, or even cannot have any, and feeling depressed cuz of that. Some of us were told to fall in love! cuz you cannot be alone, you always have to seek that special one and hope he/she'll turn your life into gold.

and why we're falling in love?! what the fck is the reason?! Actually love is reasonless but people ask! your loved one wanna learn why are you in love with him, and expecting the answer "it's your eyes darling, they look right into my heart" or "it's because your saying "my love""
fuck that shit! I'm too angry right now cuz off all this fake love, fake smiles, fake relations! fuck them all.

If you love someone, you just love him!! you love him even if he doesn't have a beat skipping smile, heart breaking eyes! or even if he never calls you as "my love". you just love to be with him in every second of your life. it's not just the appearance people! or its not the distance what makes love possible.

right now Im just trying to find an answer why I'm writing these here. not on facebook or tumblr cuz I have my friends there and I know they'll be judging me at the end. not on twitter, cuz u cannot actually. not on a word page. cuz Im sick of looking at word pages while trying to finish my final project. not on a paper, cuz I wanna share it maybe that special one will be reading it one day and maybe understands, who knows!